Rum-tala-tum! Sorry for the lack of updates, I've got exams started (just today!) and whoop whoop! In A Levels everything's so different; I've got so much homework I didn't really have time to actually sit my butt down and study. The assignments only stopped flooding in on the last day yesterday, before my exams started today. But it keeps us students who can be kinda lazy, on our toes! So I had my first Maths Pure Paper today, with last minute preparation in school by my friends which helped :) and as usual after my math papers, I always feel numb. I don't wanna comment on the paper just yet, I've got my Paper Six this weekend which is gonna help lots. I prefer Statistics anytime over Pure, even though the answers are rarely definite, but I guess it's just what *clicks* with me.
This morning when I woke up I suddenly had this thought. I wonder, why is it that sometimes, even after people have set their mind to do something, there are times where it just doesn't work out? I mean, I know some people have good intentions and good hearts, they do want to move on and change their lives but sometimes it's really hard for them to keep focus. I can relate to that. I remembered Daniel, and what made the difference between him, his friends and all the other soldiers when they had to bow before the king whenever he passed by, was that he purposed in his heart not to defile his God. That takes guts, and I've come to realize, that not everyone is cut out for this kinda commitment. Not everyone is a Daniel, and it takes courage, faithfulness and a mind that's set on the right things; things above. Some are learning, some are not even there yet. Slowly, daily, it gets you there I guess.
It's just like Krystal Meyers' song The Way To Begin: I've seen a million smiles, living in denial, I don't wanna live like that, where nothing's real. I hate how it is to feel frustrated, irritated, disconnected from it all. I'm breaking, and I'm aching for something beautiful. There's just so many people out there who feel like this and they have to repeatedly go through a cycle of life and death, pain and sorrow, over and over again. It's like a rollercoaster; you're on a high then you're down low (too slow!) hahahaha. Well, we have a great GOD! who's just more to ready enough to help us in our time of need. I used to think that it was just really impossible for people so filthy and hypocritical to change their ways and be accepted by God, but no, that's the lie of the enemy. As long as you're repentant! And you choose to turn back from your ways (oh and it's not easy trust me!) Question is, are we ready to help ourselves? And stop depending on people? I'm still struggling with this, but I believe that letting go of the things that hinder you, is a great step that brings you along the way. A long, but worth-it way. Thanks to my friends who are not ashamed of the gospel, and who believe in speaking up, and sometimes slapping people into reality is necessary: metaphorically or literally, whichever you like (sometimes we need both).
Which reminds me, I've got my November English AS papers to sit for after these exams. I kinda regret not taking Maths now, because after the LONGEST time of doing math, I enjoyed myself doing it in the hall today -_- I guess I'll wait until next June to sit for it. Woah, four subjects (inclusive of GP which I must take) that's like almost 10 papers?! Wowwee no joke man!
Psalm 73:2&28- But as for me, my feet came close to stumbling, my steps had almost slipped.. But as for me, the nearness of God is my good; I have made the Lord God my refuge.
This morning when I woke up I suddenly had this thought. I wonder, why is it that sometimes, even after people have set their mind to do something, there are times where it just doesn't work out? I mean, I know some people have good intentions and good hearts, they do want to move on and change their lives but sometimes it's really hard for them to keep focus. I can relate to that. I remembered Daniel, and what made the difference between him, his friends and all the other soldiers when they had to bow before the king whenever he passed by, was that he purposed in his heart not to defile his God. That takes guts, and I've come to realize, that not everyone is cut out for this kinda commitment. Not everyone is a Daniel, and it takes courage, faithfulness and a mind that's set on the right things; things above. Some are learning, some are not even there yet. Slowly, daily, it gets you there I guess.
It's just like Krystal Meyers' song The Way To Begin: I've seen a million smiles, living in denial, I don't wanna live like that, where nothing's real. I hate how it is to feel frustrated, irritated, disconnected from it all. I'm breaking, and I'm aching for something beautiful. There's just so many people out there who feel like this and they have to repeatedly go through a cycle of life and death, pain and sorrow, over and over again. It's like a rollercoaster; you're on a high then you're down low (too slow!) hahahaha. Well, we have a great GOD! who's just more to ready enough to help us in our time of need. I used to think that it was just really impossible for people so filthy and hypocritical to change their ways and be accepted by God, but no, that's the lie of the enemy. As long as you're repentant! And you choose to turn back from your ways (oh and it's not easy trust me!) Question is, are we ready to help ourselves? And stop depending on people? I'm still struggling with this, but I believe that letting go of the things that hinder you, is a great step that brings you along the way. A long, but worth-it way. Thanks to my friends who are not ashamed of the gospel, and who believe in speaking up, and sometimes slapping people into reality is necessary: metaphorically or literally, whichever you like (sometimes we need both).
Which reminds me, I've got my November English AS papers to sit for after these exams. I kinda regret not taking Maths now, because after the LONGEST time of doing math, I enjoyed myself doing it in the hall today -_- I guess I'll wait until next June to sit for it. Woah, four subjects (inclusive of GP which I must take) that's like almost 10 papers?! Wowwee no joke man!
Psalm 73:2&28- But as for me, my feet came close to stumbling, my steps had almost slipped.. But as for me, the nearness of God is my good; I have made the Lord God my refuge.
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